Uncertainty is a Joy Killer

I usually try and keep my posts upbeat, positive and encouraging. Right now I am struggling with the uncertainty of my husband's job, and trusting God has our best interests at heart. I like being in a stable situation, who doesn't? I don't like that I lash out at my husband for things that are not in his control. He is a hard-working man and has always provided for this family. I had to just write an apology letter to him for lashing out at him today for things that are not in his control what-so-ever. He is trying, and doing amazing. I am so mad at myself for being so ugly, so not the woman I was meant to be for him. I know God is doing something amazing in my life, and it comes with trials and tests. We are meant to be over comers, if there's nothing to "overcome" ... what's the point in this life on Earth? This is our school, and I need to start learning from these lessons, FAITH.. HOPE & LOVE. That's what we are learning. To love one another, extend grace, mercy and love to those in our lives. Today I pray for those struggling with fear, anxiety, and depression. I know when I am struggling with these things, that is God telling me to pray for others dealing with the same things. I want to start doing a "VLOG" instead of just a "BLOG." I know what this year holds, my 33rd year on this earth.. will be like no other year. I feel it is a prophetic year for me to fulfill God's will for my life. Even though I can't see the WHOLE picture yet, the puzzle pieces He has given me are starting to form a beautiful picture.