Insomnia & Mystery of MY NAME

So... I haven't really been sleeping all that great. It hasn't even been, as far as I can tell, related to my taper off mmt. For the most part it is due to the fact I sleep with a 3 year old in the midst of a growth spurt. That is a whole other blog. But there has been SUCH an URGENCY and HUNGER * that I have PRAYED FOR to experience for YEARS! Holy Spirit is whispering to me almost constantly about MY IDENTITY. This IS WHO I WAS MADE TO BE! Finally after searching what feels like an eternity to find out MY WHY... IT'S FOUND IN HIM! The ONE I've known of my WHOLE LIFE, BUT NEVER TRULY KNOWN. Finding HIM has been and IS a continuous journey and something I am incapable of achieving in my own strength,mind, soul... it has to start WITH HIM.. & END with HIM. My name is biblical, and purposeful JUST as much as HE IS. He has MADE EVERYTHING YOU SEE. Just look in the mirror. Find HIM. I have been to a few Dr.s appointments lately and just trying to share HIS LOVE in my own power has been hard. As soon as I stopped trying once I got in the Dr.'s offices and start talking to the nurses and ARNP etc it has become easier. I always feel like I need an "opening line." Well, this morning I got one. MY NAME. <3