MMT Diaries

I have a journal I started back in December of 2017 when I first began my taper from methadone. I honestly would love to have it published one day to help others during their taper, or own struggles with MMT. There are so many people out there, like me, who have had little to no information about MMT and the obstacles we face as patients. It hasn't been a perfect taper, but it has been pretty close! The ONLY way I have made it to where I am on my taper is SOLELY BECAUSE OF MY FAITH IN MY HEAVENLY FATHER! He truly is in control and has OUR BEST interests at heart. It only gets hard for me when I STOP relying upon HIM for my EVERY NEED! I am sure it's going to get a lot harder each time I try and take over. I am thankful that in those moments of my weakness HE is strong and HE is there for me! He has proven it OVER, OVER, AND OVER AGAIN! I am looking forward as I end my treatment to all of the GOOD things are going to come from it. I love the song by Steffany Gretzinger "Steady Heart." I posted it above and the lyrics are so beautiful and SO TRUE! Today as I reflect on the past 7 months of this journey in my recovery to being independent from MMT... I see the beauty in all the pain I experienced the past 3 years of my recovery process. The times where I felt so completely ALONE, and Guilty, were all so worth it as I sit here and realize their purposes. God is a God of LOVE, He created each one of US in HIS Image. I have been watching the series "The Bible" on Netflix and have been enjoying each second of HIS amazing Grace, Mercy, and LOVE for Us. I adore My Heavenly Father SO much and want to Share HIM with everyone I CAN!!! I crave intimacy with Him. He is EVERYTHING to ME! Talk is SO CHEAP, but WALKING out what He truly called us to be, IS JESUS. Can you imagine a world, where we stop selling cheap to the devil... and we fully manifest The LIFE of JESUS!!!? I know it IS POSSIBLE! Philippians 4:13-15 The Passion Translation (TPT)

12–13 I know what it means to lack,[a] and I know what it means to experience overwhelming abundance. For I’m trained in the secret of overcoming all things, whether in fullness or in hunger. And I find that the strength of Christ’s explosive power infuses me to conquer every difficulty.[b]

14 You’ve so graciously provided for my essential needs during this season of difficulty. 15 For I want you to know that the Philippian church was the only church that supported me in the beginning as I went out to preach the gospel. You were the only church that sowed into me financially,[c]

Footnotes:

[a]Philippians 4:12 Or “be humbled.”

[b]Philippians 4:12 Or “to master all things.”

[c]Philippians 4:15 The Aramaic can be translated “accounts of planting and giving.”

The Passion Translation (TPT)

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