Weight Issues

I know I have not posted much about my weight issues thus far. Now I feel is the time to get into that. This is something I have struggled with my whole life, but more so for the last 8 or more years. I always felt pretty for the most part, but always felt negative feelings about my weight as I got older When I was about 21-22 I really started to see my self in a negative light. A lot of that had to do with my drug use. I was not raised to eat very healthy and my mom did cook sometimes, but never really had a knack for cooking. I have had to learn WHAT to eat, HOW to eat and WHEN to eat. I would go a whole day at times and only eat a granola bar. But , I LOVE FOOD. So then I would binge eat when I got home from school. I am learning SO MUCH right now about how GOD views US! That truly is what it's all about. I WANT to LEARN to eat healthy meals and eat at the right times and not overeat. This SPIRITUAL journey I am on is also a PHYSICAL journey. Once we can align our MINDS, BODIES, & SOULS with the WORD of GOD, it all comes EASILY. Upon dating my amazing husband, he really got me into the gym. I was pretty active in middle school, and always running around in high school. Although I didn't play sports in HS I was still pretty active. I still didn't have a SOLID MEAL plan. I only recently started to become interested in Nutrition, and Fitness. I would love to incorporate that love into a career! So, now that I have finally gotten the 10+ pounds that I had put on during my pregnancy and then after my pregnancy. I actually had my thyroid checked this past week. I am waiting for those results. I KNOW for a FACT, however I gained the weight because I was CRAVING CRAPPY FOODS! Sugar. Sugar has always been my weakness. I am learning to limit it, not completely, but there must be a BALANCE. SO , I had a really rough patch that started around mid 2015. I was working and struggling with leaving my baby girl each time I had a shift at the restaurant I was serving in. I also got pretty depressed because after a 4 year clean streak off opiates I had a relapse. I had gotten out of Church, and out of turning to God for ALL my issues. Looking back now, I can see how it happened. It started out with me thinking I had CONTROL over my addiction. I became SO AFRAID of EVER "messing up" again that I swept my addiction under the rug and I stood on top of it. I had NO TOOLS to prevent a possible relapse. I was CONFIDENTLY SCARED. I HATED my addiction and literally thought I was BETTER than my addiction. Now, that I have been in MMT Recovery for 3 years in May I realize that I was doing all the RIGHT things TO relapse. I know NOW that Recovery is a Journey and not a RACE that ends. It's an EVERY DAY surrender to GOD. Because ONLY through GOD are ALL THINGS POSSIBLE. So, now I just remain FOCUSED ON GOD! And have a balance in my diet which is still a work in progress and need to work on the exercise again. I have so much more to say about this, and I will. But please watch the video below. WE ARE WORTH IT! WE ARE LOVED! Anyone struggling with addiction, body image, co-dependency, abuse, or anything that I may be able to help you through please don't hesitate to give me feedback. There is a place on my website you can privately message me. Don't be afraid to ask FOR HELP!